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i can’t tell if i’m getting sick or if i have dodged another sickness bullet. i’ve been taking vitamins lately like it’s nobody’s business. it’s my latest effort in improving my health. i figure it counteracts my odd metabolism and hunger patterns.
this past weekend i saw little miss sunshine. what an amazing movie. it was much better than what i had expected, and i was already expecting it to be pretty good.
so last week i did something rather exciting … i’ve been saying i would take up running again as a way to get back into shape. i’m proud to announce that i’ve registered for the shamrock shuffle on march 25th. i’m running it with a bunch of people from work so it should be a good time. it’s only an 8K (5 miles), so it shouldn’t be too bad, or at least i hope it’s not. i’m just hoping that the temperature goes up just a bit so i can start getting ready for it. i shouldn’t take me too long adjust to that but it’s just been so long that i better be sure i’m prepared. if all goes well my goal is to start running a bit more and ultimately i’d love to run the chicago marathon, although i’m sure i won’t be ready for that until 2008. i’m hoping this goes well, i’m just quite satisfied that i’m following through with a new year’s resolution, or at least a new year’s resolution that i’m starting right now: start running/working out.
it should be a lot of fun. it’s only 40-45 minutes of running so i can’t imagine it will be that bad. i’m keeping my fingers crossed that it’s a great experience.
so that was my big news that is a bit hard to believe. i’m motivated to make this a year of change.
ugh. okay i’m going to go try and fall back to sleep now. i’m not feeling so great and apparently i’m not able to sleep either. icky, icky, icky.
warm, fuzzy feelings
i’m so freaking excited …
reason 1: i have been told i get to go to austin on business in the middle of february. after being a bit homesick for austin lately, i’m SO freaking excited about that. i’m only supposed to be there monday through wednesday but i’m thinking about perhaps finding a friend to stay with and flying up the friday before and spending that extra weekend. i’ll have to sit down and figure something out. i’m already making a list of all the food i have to eat and the people i need to see while i’m there.
reason 2: i finally motivated myself enough to spend almost $100 on a new space heater & humidifer for my room. no more tossing and turning because it’s cold and dry in my room. plus i also moved my bed away from the window and i’ve started making my room OCD-quality clean. it’s incredibly pathetic how excited i am about all of this.
i’ve got nothing [but time]
i made a huge mistake … i was watching food 911 on food network and the episode was about southern food. i got to thinking about food from the south and before i knew it i was thinking about tex-mex. before i knew it i found myself on the trudy’s Web site and looking at the menu. it has been 8 months since i’ve had my migas enchiladas or a nice mexican martini. oh what i wouldn’t do for some decent enchiladas right about now. oh and bbq. the day of my graduation was the last time i had bbq. there’s such great food here but oddly enough none of it falls into the three/four best types of food: mexican/tex-mex, bbq, and southern food. my heart is terribly torn between austin and chicago.
maybe i can cure my need for good food by attempting to learn to cook it myself.
work has been crazy lately. i’m working so many hours but i’m feeling like i’m getting no where. it’s my insecurity in the quality of work i’ve been producing that is getting to me.
ugh and don’t even get me started on this complete lack of snow. everytime i see it in the forecast i get all excited only to have my hopes diced into small pieces. it’s been decently cold and that’s kinda nice. i do enjoy the cold weather. i just need more snow. if there was more snow i could officially declare that chicago has some amazing weather. this past summer was the most amazing weather i’ve ever experienced in my life. i just need some nice snow to balance it all out.
on an even more unrelated note … yeah, i’ve got nothing else.
i should probably get to bed.
no thank you
had a rather uneventful weekend. the highligh of the weekend was spending saturday evening at megan’s with some friends from work. had a great night of drinks, wine, and games. spent most of sunday relaxing and watching TiVo.
today was rather a hohum day.
had a bit of a migraine this morning so i ended up taking the morning off to try and get over it.
it was snowing as i made my way to work. it was peaceful. not as romantic or exciting as it should have been. i was just in a bit of a down mood today. nothing horrible, just felt a bit down.
that’s about it. i should have something big to talk about before the end of the day tomorrow. we shall see how it goes.
until then.
cheers.
mmm grey’s anatomy
grey’s was sooooooo freaking good tonight. it was a roller coaster of emotions. can’t wait until part two next week. now the music guide for tonight’s episode needs to be posted so i can download the songs.
it’s cold. cold and dry. the air is incredibly dry and it’s killing my skin. i need to get a humidifier. my face has dried out so much that i have a sore spot on my cheek that actually turned into a gash. i might have been scratching it in my sleep and not have realized it. i swear it wasn’t there when i went to bed last night. i woke up and it’s horrible. so buying a humidifier is my goal for the weekend. that and tidying up my room, but i don’t want to try for too much. :P
good times.
where’s the snow?
i keep getting all excited, thinking it’s going to snow. what a freaking disappointment. while i was on the train to work today i noticed small patches of snow. made me so sad. they keep putting it in the forecast but it just gets taken out. i just don’t think it’s ever going to snow. *tear*
on the train
Grrrrrr. I hate when women paint their nails on the train. The lady in =
front of me is doing so and the fumes are overwhelming me. Why don’t people =
have common sense and why can’t they be considerate?
kleenex.com
this is such a great ad & media campaign … just as good as the dove beauty one, maybe even better:
brought a tear or two to my eye ;)
fast, but hard to find, food
call me crazy, but i was thinking about it and it has been 8 months since i’ve eaten anything from wendy’s or sonic. 8 months! and i’ve only had mcdonalds a handful of times. i believe this would probably be the reason i’ve lost a lot of the fat i gained during senior year of college. in austin it’s so easy to find a wendy’s and go crazy. i feel like finding food is more of a task here. there aren’t as many fast food places and the ones that are aren’t always located conveniently to public transportation. in case it’s not obvious, i have a serious craving for fast food at the moment.
an end to an awkward feeling
i could say this was a horrible, horrible morning, but it actually turned out to be okay …
i couldn’t sleep last night. after trying multiple times i finally gave up at about 5:30am. i started getting ready for work figuring i would just come in and get a jump start. i got in the shower and i continued to think. why was my mind all over the place. why couldn’t i stop thinking for one second? what was that awkward feeling that i couldn’t shake?
it finally dawned on me. i only get this way when i’ve been back home. i’m feeling this way because i’m a bit lonely. i didn’t think the move from texas would have had such an effect on me until this morning. i got out of the shower and i was looking in the mirror and i started to cry a bit. i wasn’t sure why. it was at that point i decided that i have to do something about it and start attempting to fully adjust to being out of texas. so i’ve given myself to the end of the year. either i make things better for myself or i have to make the decision to possibly move back to texas. i’m almost certain that i can figure things out and attempt to adjust; my environment and experience just needs some altering. i figure if i give myself until the end of the year this will force me to do something about it rather than just live my life either in my office or in my bedroom.
so it’s been a sort of revelation of sorts this morning. so even though i haven’t slept since the night before last i’m feeling goodnow and i’m not down like i have been for the past couple of days. perhaps it’s what i needed to shake that awkward feeling.
i left for work this morning at 6am and it was still pitch black outside. as i was getting closer to the city the sun was starting to rise and the way it it the sears tower and hancock center kind of gave me an additional boost.
now i must get to work. i should be able to get a head start this morning since i’m in two hours earlier than i normally am. maybe i’ll even take off at a decent hour today.
until later.
could you make anymore of a fool out of yourself?
pat robertson continues to prove he’s officially one of the stupidest men to walk this earth:
CNN: Pat Robertson: God told me of ‘mass killing’ in 2007
www.cnn.com/2007/US/01/02/robertson.predictions.ap/index.html
implied quote:
it rained a lot in some parts of the country, so my prediction of horrible storms in the united states was pretty head-on. afterall, it never rains in the US.
seriously, what a fucktard
sleep, reconsidered
Summary of the below entry, for those who don’t care to read much further down the page:
- i don’t sleep when i have the opportunity to do so.
- i’ve let my “creativity” get the best of me, again.
- i’m in the process of creating ANOTHER site, along with accompanying screennames that i’m intent on transititioning to (maybe i’ll follow through with development of this site): uselesslyclever.com
- i’ve begun working on my first mindless project. mindless projects is something that i’m hoping i can turn into a serious hobby: 31days31shirts.com
- my return to work was as expected and rather uneventful
- sleep is my priority on my newly created list of 2007 new year’s resolution
i could so be sleeping right now. it would make sense for me to be asleep right now. i don’t like to do things that make sense. i like to be different.
i have developed something to keep me entertained at random times during the year … i’ve decided that i’ll adopt random pet projects to work on. will they serve a purpose? no. will it be amusing for me? yes. will it amuse anyone else? probably not. does it matter? no, i’m my own entertainment and i kinda like it that way.
to kick off my first pet project of course i had to purchase another domain name. i can now add uselesslyclever.com to the growing list of domain names that i own. i seriously need to get rid of some of these, or at the very least do something with some of them. my first idea is that uselesslyclever.com can be the home where all my “great” ideas go to die. i’ve also taken the respective AIM & Yahoo! screenname. ryanostopher has worn off its welcome. to be honest, uselesslyclever came to me while i was in the shower, i’m surprised that nobody had nevertaken it before, especially in this era where you have to add a million digits to the end of the screenname you want. uselesslyclever will also hopefully eliminate the need to have to explain the origins a million times.
continuing on with my first “clever” idea. while i will keep most of the details a secret from now, i’ve dubbed this first mindless pet project of mine “31days31shirts.com”. i’m started planning out the execution of this idea, which i think might be funny. i’ve already invested $12 in it, i’m hoping that is motivation to follow through on it. my timeframe is set to have it ready to launch in july or august. i’m pushing towards july, simply because i’m not really that fond of the months of august through october. i also thought this one through and bought both 31days31shirts.com AND 31shirts31days.com. i have these crazy fantasies of being one of those spur-of-the-moment sites that are mentioned as the new “hot” thing in Wired or Time Magazine. one day i swear one of my days will be worthy enough.
so yeah, the moral of the story is that i should be left alone for fear of me trying to pretend to be creative, resulting in the birth of crazy ideas such as 31days31shirts.com.
my return to work was rather uneventuful. i found my most productive periods of the day to be morning and early evening. everything in between was a struggle to stay seated at my desk for so long. i’m hoping to be back up to 100%+ productivity by late tomorrow afternoon or sometime thursday.
speaking of work … i’m anxiously awaiting my nameplate for the outside of my office. if i remember correctly the photo actually might end up being rather clever. i can’t belive it’s been eight months since i started working full-time for the agency. that just seems crazy. it feels like just yesterday i was counting the days until graduation. it’s interesting how much people change and grow in such short periods of time.
and it’s 2am, again. one day i’ll get myself on a normal sleeping schedule. we can call that new year’s resolution #2. two resolutions in as many days, i’m setting myself up for disappointment. i better take it slow and not add so many resolutions to the list so quickly. the idea of being on a normal sleeping schedule sounds so great right about now though. i think i’ll make that a priority.
until later.
out with the old, in with the new
i’m laying in bed and of course i can’t sleep. i have a feeling that has come over me. it’s that awkward, anxious feeling. if i had enough time to get more sleep i would just take an anxiety pill and be done with it but instead i’m just hoping i get really tired and fall asleep soon. until then i’m just going to lay in bed and let my wander aimlessly around. it’s amazing how much i think and overthink things.
so 2007 is here. a bit hard to believe that this last year went by so quickly. at this time last year i had no idea i was going to end up here in chicago. the year definetly had its up and downs. what an interesting journey it has been. i’m looking forward to 2007, i’m hoping that it will be a good year. i’ve made some resolutions that i’m hoping i stick to. and some of them are bordering on wishes, i can dream right? of course it’s too early in the year to reveal them; they’re a lot like birthday wishes, if you go telling everyone what you want then it’s not bound to happen.
i wish my mind wasn’t wandering around so much right now. i could really use the sleep. once my brain gets going it just never seems to be able to turn off.
tomorrow is going to be an interesting day at work. it will be nice to be back in the office and working again. i’m just dreading all the work that there is to be done. i oddly really miss working though.
on another note … the word interesting … i’m finding that i have been abusing that word a bit lately. i’m finding that it has about 7 or 8 different meanings for me. it’s terribly interesting (that time i actually meant interesting as in intriguing). i guess i should probably work on expanding my vocabulary and not being so difficult for other people to read. we can call that resolution #1.
okay i’m off to try and salvage a few hours of sleep before it’s time to get up for work.
after day one of 2007: so far, so good
ugh my spelling and grammar skills are horrible tonight, i’ve tried catching the most obvious errors but i’m finding my brain is too tired to catch the rest. don’t judge.
