the time where i couldn’t get to sleep

it’s about 2:30am. i’ve tried to get to bed about three or four times already this evening. every time i try i just lay there. i think the fact that i’m such an anxious person is what’s keeping me up tonight. there’s always so many things to be pondering and unnecessarily dwelling on.

when i woke up this morning i was in so much pain that i couldn’t move for 15 minutes. for the third day in a row i’ve woken up with an aching back. i can’t recollect it every hurting this bad. i’m hoping i’ve just been repeatedly sleeping on it wrong. i’m also exploring the possibility that i could be anemic. i’m going to pay a visit to the doctor (which i was supposed to do today) after the holidays for my yearly check-up and hopefully find a reason i’ve been so fatigued lately.

i’m saving up my project runway 4 – week 1 entry because i’m still working on it. all i know right now is that i’m cheering on steven and jack.

bleh. i need to go out and find some adventure so that i have something to write about. i’m sad to say that i’m sort of sad that it’s winter already. as much as i love the cold weather and the snow, i don’t think i’m ready for it yet. i wish i had some time to get out and explore a bit. i’m contemplating playing softball next spring, although i’m not certain about that yet. i have no coordination and that might just be asking for trouble. i do know that i would really like to start working out and running again. i fell so out of shape that i think i might be able to really convince myself to do it.

that’s it for now. let’s hope my journey down to texas on wednesday is a bit more exciting and i have something to write about wednesday evening. exciting, not traumatic though. i DO NOT need a repeat of my journey back to texas last christmas.

until later.